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God has really been putting something on my mind as of late. And it seems as though is has been a theme everywhere I go. It is the topic of conversation or it is the topic of bible study and sermons that I've gone to. Contentment and not forcing things to happen before their time. Yes I know most everyone thinks about this, but it has been very overwhelming lately. And it definitely hit home last night. I went to access ( a college and career group at res life) the guy was talking about there being a time for everything, even a time for where you're at right now....even though you really don't want to be there right now. He used the passage in Ecclesiastes 3, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.” God has put me where I am for a reason I don't really know why right now and I feel very trapped and I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and I cant get out. I'm not really trusting that God is going to take care of me and get me where I need to be.... where he wants me to be. So if he wants me to be somewhere (especially where I am at right now )who am I to say no or try and take in my own hands and try and decide where I think God wants me to be and not really listening or paying attention to God's leading, I'm doing it on my own. When I feel trapped, I need not question the season he has put me in. He has me here for a reason. I need to pay attention.  I don't want to miss something he has for me. I need to keep my focus on him. Reminiscing is fine sometimes, but not to the extent to where I am wishing I was back there in the 'good old days'. I cant despise the season. When I'm fantasizing about the future I cant try and make those things happen, I cant force the season. This thought is the one that I struggle with the most. . There are things that I want so badly that I really try and force them to come and I kinda force them upon people, and in the end it drives them away. Because that is not where they are and I'm really not there either, I just wish that I was.

so these are my thoughts, and this is what God has been showing me in the past few weeks. Its amazing how when God really wants you to realize something he puts it everywhere you go. Sometimes we all just need a little reminder of his faithfulness.

So I have to update this thing, because apparently Ryan needs something to read.

so I got this package from Sweden today, and I really want to open it........but I said that wouldn’t until my birthday,......which is next Wednesday the 21st......but I really want to open it now. it is sitting in  front of me right now... and it is tempting me..........I need to know what is inside!! AHHHHHH the suspense is killing me. Well maybe not killing. But I really want it now!!!!!